hello
i realli dunno how to start this
but i have no one else to turn to
maybe it's realli my fault
thinking back
now i realli regret
but regreting wun bring back anythin rite?
am i going to sit here and do nothing
maybe i shouldn't have told him anything and made him so confused oso
he used to be so happy with her
am i going to be e one to break them up again?
nono tat's not my purpose
this mornin' i woke up and gave him a morning call
i heard his voice
i was happier
was i?
yesh i was
i was wondering how nice if he was still mine now
i can call him anytime to sae i lurve u
but now
no matter how much i wan to see him or say anything
i have to keep it in my heart
am i going to continue to wait on for him
or am i jus going to withdraw from all this?
if i could i would have
i really would have
but i have been thinking of him lately and he cant get out of my head
wat am i supposed to do?
yes i've cried
but crying wun change anything either
will it?
no it wun
maybe i'll jus have to forget bout everything
maybe i shouldn't have toked to him in e first place
none of us would have got hurt
i was heartbroken when he doubted me
now im e one starting to feel e loneliness
he asked me to go find another stead
no way
im not going to do tat
how can i
i would be treating tat person as a subs. instead
anyway im glad u're quitting smoking =)
even though im not e one u're listening to
im still happy
fight e symtoms ok?
don give up
i wish i could be e one right by ur side to console when u're sad
or be e one u scold when u lose ur temper
or be e one to share your joy n pain
all these are now jus fantasies rite
cos maybe in my life this will never happen again
although we're not together anymore
it hurts me so when he thinks badly of himself
i wish i could be there to boost his morale
to make him feel better
when he sleeps i wish i could be there rite by his side
when he cries i wish i can be there to wipe them away and make him laugh again
when he's troubled i wish i could be there to take away all his troubles
maybe i should stop thinking of all this alreadi and leave it all to him?
e decision lies in his hand as i've said
i jus wan to let him noe
i realli still lurve him =)
leAve e sAdness bEhinD]]*\__)=