ahhhh!!! i l0st my fuckin wallet!!! thanks val f0r tat hug. :) im n0t actually smiling n0w. neither d0 i feel like it. i l0st my wallet!! everything's in it. especially tat ring. im g0ing crazy! it's e 2nd time i've l0st it, eNn`` e ring's only 1 week old!!!!! grrrr i feel like jumping 0f e building or sumthin. *ROAR* better n0t c0me near me or i'll bite ur head off man.

irritating!!!!! ahhhh!!!!!!!!!!!

* l0ve ish n0rt b0ut finding s0me0ne y0u cann live with__*budd findin s0meone y0u cant live with0ut.-*







read tat sentence up there.







so if i say YOU are e one i carrnt live without. means? means i love YOU right? baby ur s0.. blur .. hehe. ur n0t stupid. ur jus a blur little piggy. my piggy. 0nly mine arh u heard? >.<





having to ``ll0ve sumone and being l0ved is such a nice feeling euu can never get sick off. right baby? xp but..having to w0rry f0r that pers0n all day l0ng aint a nice feeling. right baby? u get wadd i mean. i've been thru`` it l0ts of times. uh huh. >.< -bleahs- i ``ll0ve my baby to bits eNn` pieces. i c0uld hug him all day l0ng and never ever let g0. n0rrt even f0r 1sec. hehe. i've nebber ``ll0ved sum0ne this much bef0re. *seri0us* baby u'll be e first and last i'll ever ``l0ve s0 much. ^^ awwws. aint i sweet? x) but hey i mean it 0kayys. d0n believe i sh0w euu`` l0rr.







baby. valerie eNn`` ii are okayy already. i mean..friends again. :) im soo happy. really. just tat it's a little t0o sudden. but baby, im still g0nna be a l0ner. =x hahaas. really.! i g0nna be friends with every0ne. n0 enemies anym0re!! (x



i l0ve euu`` baby. 0nlyy euu`` aar0nrawks.! x)

HAHAHA .. my head's burning. im getting sick. LOL. funny right!! now im coughing like crazy. my throat hurts like fuck. almost fainted yesterday. in e cab summore!! -_-" who cares.

haha. u need two hands to clap. in a relationship. both parties have to give and take. right? .. uh huh. wadd am i talking about? i dunno. i mean. u noe wadd i mean right. u noe u noe. yupps U NOE!!

din do much today. went out to orchard with my dad. uh huh. right so i always wonder..who would go to orchard with their parents? .. hmmm .. me lah. aint it obvious or sumthin. i think my dad rockks. :) awwws. aint i nice. den went to pick my stupid brother up from his friend's house. okok i love my brother too..sometimes only lahh. =x

sometimes i wonder. did i get too deep into it? i think so. cos i cant get out now. serious.
wuddever. haahaa.

attention people! im inviting u all to my funeral. wanna come?? >.<"

I never could`ve seen this far
I never could`ve seen this coming
It seems like my world`s falling apart.

Why is everything so hard
I don`t think that I can deal with the things you said
It just won`t go away
I used to think that I was strong
Until the day it all went wrong
I think I need a miracle to make it through

I wish that I could bring you back
I wish that I could turn back time
Cuz I can`t let go I just can`t find my way.

Without you I just can`t find my way
I don`t know what I should do now
I don`t know where I should go
I`m still here waiting for you
I`m lost when you`re not around
I need to hold on to you
I just can`t let you go

nice lehh..

something is wrong with everyone today ok. including me but excluding my dad. he wants to bring me out. -_- .. good right? yupps. cant be bothered. he wants to treat tat pig to dinner e pig dun wan. sighh. so wadd man. haha. siao.

ah yah .. blog again later bubbye

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uh huh .. LOL

you liar, u big fat liar.

grrrrr make sure your mouth rots. you leave me here at home alone waiting for you e whole day. daarn. i was free today you stoopidpiggillicious PIG! ok i dunno wat tat word means. -.- but but .. im angry. >:s hmph. and den ur gonna enjoy e movie right!! hmph. >.< now even a million kisses from eu wont ease my anger!! hmph. YOU better find ways to please me or else!! im gonna go get a chopper!! and and ... no no cant cant .. fine. nvm. forget it. but im still angry! im angry baby! i aint toking to you hmph! ..

laa dee dum. finish tuition already. yipee!! im free now. -.- 2 hours off maths does you harm. cant you tell? from the state im in. like .. DUH.. wahahahahs

sorry im a little crazy. if you can excuse me. darn tomorrow got school already. sunday blues. im so bored larh. cant see my baby today. he got tuition from 130-430. do you believe it?! my baby actually can go thru like 3 hours of tuition. omg i dont believe it. if 2 hours of maths tuition can drive me crazy, i cant imagine wat 3 hours of tuition will do to me. =x

anyways .. i got nothing to say already lehh. my blog posts are so boring.
nvm who cares. bye!!

love you baby.

darn half a weekend is over. -.- have tuition tomorrow morning. hate tuitions!! haven started on my tuition homework anyways. haha.


went out this afternoon to cine with my baby. watched this jap movie "cry out loud" isit? yah sumthin lidat. din noe wat was it but hmmm it was pretty sad. e girl died of this stupid disease leukemia. however u spell it. so sad larh. they were so young. but e guy rocked! he still wanted to marry her. oh and he wanted to bring her to australia (she was longing to go there) but den somehow e stupid director created a typhoon then and they werent able to go. :(


oh yes. my baby's so sweet. i lost e ring he gave me and i was like..darn sad and of cos guilty!. and den he bought a new one for me today. awww .. baby i love euu!! you simply rock my world.


brigitte ur right. e teachers do despise retainees or rather in our school it's slightly different, they despise we students from 3k too . lol u should have known earlier man!! going to a private would be nice. there wouldn't be any uniform and u can go there in pyjamas. hahas..tat's so cool man. and you have to wake up early at 6am.! but it's ex..but i don give a damn, i'd rather go there den face e fuckin teachers in tk. wahahahas. dunno y i went to tk also. shrugs~

crazy larh me .. sumthin's really wrong with me. hmmm .. but i also dunno wat leh..laa dee dum i love being a loner. wahaha it so rockks. LONER LONER. im lovin` it . =x see i told u im crazy. ok lemme be crazy. anyone willing to go crazy with me!? muahaha

aaron baby!!! i love euu``!!
miss euu`` so muchiee!!!
ahhh!!! no one can ever replace euu`` baby!
ur be my one n only!!!!

baby u're so cheeky! i must spank you one day!
HEHE .. *muahhs!!*

<3 euu`` 1314!!!

wo ai si ni!!!! *kiss kiss*!!

back..haven't post for a long long time. or rather just 3 days. been thinking lots lately. aint that good with them anymore. but they're still my good frens afterall. *serious*

school's so darn boring. there are already tests coming up. siao one.
bored now. -.-"

love euu` baby

Happy 7th month sweetheart!

we've been thru so much yet we're still together.
(: i love u baby.
u'll always be number one in my heart!
no one can ever replace you.

e love u have given me is enough to last me thru out my life.
i loved you right from e start..
im still lovee`vin you..
and i will love you forever.
other things i might nortt` promise you.
but i promise i'll love you forever.

you'll be my one and only, my honey, my dearie, my darling, my baby, my sweetheart, my sayang, my HUSBAND.
hees .. =D

you're e most charming guy i've ever met. *serious!*
guess wadd, i dont care wadd other ppl say bout you.
i dont care if ppl say ur too good for me.
i know you love me.
no matter wadd, only you'll be e love of my life.
only you.
*gou gou shou* >.-

love you baby!
muarkks``

thank you for being there always. (:




a story just for you :

FOREVER

Forever seems like such a long time and yet when I look at you it's as if forever is just with in the reach of my fingertips.
Yet you are still so very, very far away even after what seems like forever has already past. Was it so terribly long ago that I found myself looking into that handsome face and feeling such equisite emotions springing to life with in the wounded and frayed confines of a heart that had been so terribly damaged?
Hope and faith sparkled in your eyes and that smile devastated the very breath from my lungs.
One moment I was this person who had no idea what love could honestly feel like and the very next I was consumed by you and a love that simply took wings and flew beyond my reach! Oh the things I want when I am near you.
It's more the the physical attraction, more than mere words can ever adequately describe. It;s heartfelt, it's deep and it's true.
Forever ago it began, forever from now it shall be. This love that I have is as forever as the wind and the sea.


see, i told you i love you. forever. now u know what i mean.
i'll be there for you always too.
^^ `muarkks..

love u love u love u love u lots.
aaron rawks

we are wierd.
all's well ..
ok so next time i go school cannot -.- muz =D

i have tuition tmr ..
so sian
and i cant be bothered anyway..

love u aaron.
LOVE YOU.
saw that ..?!

please stop acting cute with all that bleahs and stuff. i never had ANYTHING against u ok. so ur saying i suck up to ppl younger than me. ARENT YOU? think about it. u say im flirtatious. ARENT YOU. wat the hell is e meaning of ur flirting? talking to a guy? if tat is flirting, u are much much worse. i did not go to cca to suck up to her i did it becos i wanted to! so many times i wanted to! but i din want to go alone. if i suck up to [her], den you suck up to [THEM]!

you DARED me to look in e mirror and say that sentence? well, i did it! looking straight into my eyes! arent u people wierd! when i keep quiet, u say i act innocent. when i talk, u say i flirt? haha. have i ever said a single bad thing bout you? NO. i did about someone else but not you. YOU chose to listen to them. so be it. i cant be bothered.

thinking bout e past, i realised how STUPID i am to be ur fren. being like a dog to u. waiting for u and stuff and if i don u get angry. EXCUSE ME. im a human.

uh huh. a one-sided story, oh please. u go look in the mirror and think if they have been ur real frens. there are things i have heard but i never said. do i look like i have a fuckin chance to? u won't believe wat.so wtf should i? waste my saliva. oh .. so i look like a victim? uh huh. -nnods- if u say so. if that makes u happy. :)

so btw i heard i asked a guy's number. may i know WHO that guy is? so i heard i went out with kit min? WOW that is like so amazing and totally interesting!. going out with a guy i NEVER talked to? haha i wish! so wat did u tell e rest? i copied ur notes? i stole ur textbooks i bought a bikini? uh huh. so wat? u never bought one? btw wat notes huh? come tell me straight. wat textbooks?? hey u ppl are childish lahh!! quarreling becos of nothing. angry when ppl get higher marks then u? DUH...i stomachpain larhh.laugh until cannot laugh anymore. -.-

u said i broke up a relationship. i DID NOT. i was guilty damn guilty and i admitteed it! i did not deny.but look, they broke up already! if i din feel a bit guilty at all, i wouldnt be bothered. wat else u want? HUH. i made a mistake and apologised .. so? wat else.

oh btw look out for those around you cos uu never noe what they are doing behind ur back. im telling e whole world cos i don wanna backstab them. hey btw i suck up to younger ppl? nah i don..sorry for disappointing u..YOU are e one sucking up. come on man, face the truth don u backstab e person u sit next to also? u don like her either .. i pity her lyk a dog to u!

i will never forget this. the day i remembered after english lesson i couldnt wait for u and went off and u got pissed with me? im not ur maid. sorry! pay me if i have to be. but then again sorry im not so cheap. even if i have to be a maid, i wont be urs.

face up to reality. you have good figure, you have big boobs, ur tall. perfect! ppl get jealous. but pls be nice bout it.. cant u? i mean .. so yeah ur rich. so u have e perfect life.u don have to be proud of it!!! BE NICE.

u ppl are a bunch of childish ppl. like primary school kids. don friend u here and there. sick of it. ur not? well i am. now u ppl are trying to get back at me cos of ONE mistake i made and when i have admitted it. nuthin better to do.

oh btw. ppl have their own sense of dressing. like YOU. so stop criticising ppl's dressing can? ur preety. ur lucky. spare a thought for ppl. have a heart. a conscience. hey hey, make things clear. if i flirt , tell me WHO. and i can tell u who u flirt with too!

#to brigitte lee yi ning

ps: btw pls ask those friends of urs to stop suanning my fren. behind her back or in front of her. stop making use of her and STOP TAKING HER THINGS. stop copying her answers and stop taking her homework to copy!

okie dokie! im back. so long never blog. cos my com is spoilt. oh wells. school sucks. really sucks. totally sucks. don noe what is wrong with everyone.
what to write? im so sleepy. slept one hour only last night. my eyes are like closing and i haven done my homework. yawn.
life's boring.
we ought to cherish our loved ones. :)

love u aaron. <3

.taniayan.
.011189.
.currently 17plus.
.attached.
.dog grooming

i totallyadore
.black.
.orange.
.the sunrise.
.pups.
.lolipops.
.shopping.
.horror flicks.

i totallydetest
.flirts.
.playboys.
.liars.
.backstabbers.
.hypocrites.
.CRYING.

Please dont judge me by my face, by my religion or my race. Please dont laugh at what I wear, or how I look or do my hair. Please look a little deeper, way down deep inside. And although you may not see it, I have a lot to hide. Behind my clothes the secrets lie, behind my smile I softly cry. Please look a little deeper, and maybe you will see. The lonely little girl, that lives inside of me. Please listen carefully to her, she'll show that she is insecure. Please try to be a friend to her, and show her that you care. Please just get to know her, and maybe you will see. That if you just look deep enough, you'll find the real me.


to get married at fullerton.
for more money.
for more clothes.
for a new handphone7610.
for another new handphone.
for a new house.
to study in australia.
to get a golden retriever.
to get a husky.
to get a german shepherd.
to watch the sunrise/sunset with HIM.
to go star gazing with HIM.
to migrate.
to go horseback riding by the beach.
for her own computer.
for her own digital camera.
to rebond her hair.
for blue contacts.
for new spectacles.
to meet michael chad murray.
to meet TORRES.
to forget the past
TO DIE.


`` aaron
`` alexandria
`` brigitte
`` carmen
`` charlotte
`` charmm
`` chiwen
`` de xin
`` dulcie
`` elenor
`` fang lynn
`` gabriel
`` gillian
`` heart of God church
`` hidayah
`` izzat
`` jaja
`` jason
`` jazlyn
`` jennifer
`` justin
`` jia hui
`` jian he
`` jiale
`` kai sheng
`` mee han
`` melvin
`` michelle
`` ming rong
`` nicholas how
`` one destination
`` ryan
`` sally
`` sim yee
`` siyang
`` solomon
`` valerie
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