after 4 days im finally back here.it seemed like centuries to me.Hmm i wonder why.common tests are over.guessed how did fare.6 upon 7 subjects.sigh.nopes not pass but fail.yupps.believe it or not.i failed 6 outta 7 subs.arent i pathetic.worse still im a repeat student.tat makes me even more pathetic.got back out report cards today.or rather report paper.miss seah was nagging again.as usual.fucked up bitch.okok my apologies.she means well.SHEESH.

now my mum has signed me up for science tuition.gotta go for this crash course at orchard.everyday of e hol.DAMN.well at least it's at orchard.but wth.i dunno anyone there.that's shit man.it's STUPID.if i get to sec 4 next year.i'll get tuition for EVERY subject.yesh.every single subs.if i can find lah.tat's it.now it's time to start studying for final years.darn.

im living in misery.i wanna get out of this misery.i wanna do as well as other people.i wanna feel as loved as other ppl.(tho im satisfied with wat i have now).i wanna make other people feel loved.dunno wat's wrong with me.or wat's wrong with this society.make people feel so stressed up till they don wanna do anything no breathing spacea at all.unlike other places.

it's 1130pm.darn.just remembered i got maths tuition tmr morning.shit.gotta go.my brother pestering me for e com.haix.

*my days are NUMBERED..*

.taniayan.
.011189.
.currently 17plus.
.attached.
.dog grooming

i totallyadore
.black.
.orange.
.the sunrise.
.pups.
.lolipops.
.shopping.
.horror flicks.

i totallydetest
.flirts.
.playboys.
.liars.
.backstabbers.
.hypocrites.
.CRYING.

Please dont judge me by my face, by my religion or my race. Please dont laugh at what I wear, or how I look or do my hair. Please look a little deeper, way down deep inside. And although you may not see it, I have a lot to hide. Behind my clothes the secrets lie, behind my smile I softly cry. Please look a little deeper, and maybe you will see. The lonely little girl, that lives inside of me. Please listen carefully to her, she'll show that she is insecure. Please try to be a friend to her, and show her that you care. Please just get to know her, and maybe you will see. That if you just look deep enough, you'll find the real me.


to get married at fullerton.
for more money.
for more clothes.
for a new handphone7610.
for another new handphone.
for a new house.
to study in australia.
to get a golden retriever.
to get a husky.
to get a german shepherd.
to watch the sunrise/sunset with HIM.
to go star gazing with HIM.
to migrate.
to go horseback riding by the beach.
for her own computer.
for her own digital camera.
to rebond her hair.
for blue contacts.
for new spectacles.
to meet michael chad murray.
to meet TORRES.
to forget the past
TO DIE.


`` aaron
`` alexandria
`` brigitte
`` carmen
`` charlotte
`` charmm
`` chiwen
`` de xin
`` dulcie
`` elenor
`` fang lynn
`` gabriel
`` gillian
`` heart of God church
`` hidayah
`` izzat
`` jaja
`` jason
`` jazlyn
`` jennifer
`` justin
`` jia hui
`` jian he
`` jiale
`` kai sheng
`` mee han
`` melvin
`` michelle
`` ming rong
`` nicholas how
`` one destination
`` ryan
`` sally
`` sim yee
`` siyang
`` solomon
`` valerie
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