Monday, October 31, 2005
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THERE YOU GO.fucking mum nagging again.stupid ass.grrrrrrrr.so what if there`s school tomorrow.HUH.so what.tell me SO WHAT.
okok i shan`t get pissed over people like that.right.waste my time.im bored.waiting for my baby to play finish his game.yeah.fuckin irritated.there`s extra lesson tomorrow and i haven`t decided what to do with my hair tmr.i can`t tie it up.SHEESH.
im wondering.WHY THE HELL CAN`T THEY LEAVE ME ALONE AND FUCKIN STOP NAGGING.grrrrrr.ROAR.im gonna blow!like a bulb!i am?who cares.im pissed and i duuno what to type.
whee hee.ok now here`s the decent post.went out with him today.to plaza sing to watch the legends of zorro.ta-dah.it was nice.(: and interesting.i like his son.small and cute.and INTELLIGENT.uh huh.and then after that we went to take neoprints!! yippeE!!!! they turned out nice okayy.(x yeah.and den i took mrt to his house there.HAHA.for what?for fun lah.den my dad picked me up from there.and den *poof im home.back to the jail.where i dread being.*frowns.yupp nuthin much.i think im meeting him again tomorrow.shopping!? yeah!think so lah.should be.nah. i mean hope so.lol.I LOVE YOU.
okok i`ve got nuthin more to say.no mood.bye.(:
3:23 PM;
Sunday, October 30, 2005
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LMAO.look at that.gosh.i look scary?he said so.heh.looks kinda dumb tho.yeah tat`s how i look like after i have rebonded my hair.haah.it`s okay.doesn`t look that bad right.=)
yeah im ur perfect-girl nextdoor.hmmm.*frowns.am i? (: i am.
it`s kinda boring now.what did i do today?had maths tuition in the morning.and den after that i slept from 11 to 3.i am a pig i admit.but at least not as bad as my baby.haha.and den i went for dinner at subway at suntec.i finished half a foot long sandwich ok!!haha.yay!my birthday`s coming.im going outo CELEBRATE!am i?haha i think so.=P
alrights.so i guess that`s all.(= going out tomorrow with honey.(x
2:37 PM;
Saturday, October 29, 2005
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today was okayy.went to school as usual.and den there was arts festival in the morning.went for some performance and den this hairstyling competition.we were styling diyanah`s hair.LOL.gothic.turned out quite nice okayy!but sadly we didn`t win.LOL.esme won.!-.- and den later we went to class to clean up.and i got caught by mohammad for drinking sweet drinks in class.how stupid is that.and he made me drink the whole bottle up in front of him.grrrrr.but i decided to be nice since it was the las day of school.hold on a min.there`s lessons on monday!for 2 weeks.SHEESH.stupid school.
anyway.went to rebond hair with malak and her friend at jean yip.at bugis.yupp.HEH.finally.long waited for this day.i look kinda wierd now.LOL.i dunno how to go to school on monday.maybe i`ll jus put a paperbag over my head.=X
anyway yeah.nuthin much to say.bye (x
2:25 PM;
Friday, October 28, 2005
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26 10 05
mixed-up.yeah.mixed-up.im feeling all mixed-up.sad angry frustrated annoyed disappointed hurt upset.it`s just everything bad all crushed together.and it`s getting from bad to worse.i thought i could just let go of everything but nothing`s working.i dunno wat i should do already.i feel like crying.*sigh.
reality sucks.i wanna run away from it.it hurts so bad.the world sucks.*frowns.boo )x
sometimes i wonder what the fuck has happened to me.something has gone TERRIBLY wrong but i cant figure out what and it`s driving me crazy.absolutely CRAZY.
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that on top was yesterday`s post but i kinda forgot to post it.who cares.today kinda sucked.=)school was totally boring.SHEESH.went to school to sleep.except for ada tan`s lesson.makin us do maths after exams.whose brains would be working? >.<" oh yeah brig ruisin and i din bring our ws so we got chased out of class to do it.lol.and brig and i lie down on the floor.=X ada tan came out and told us it was unlightly.LOL.wuddever.
after school my parents and i had to see choi.LOL.in the library she was talking lotsa stuff you dun even know which is true and which is not.yeah and there you go.wasted ALOT of my precious time.my daddy sent me home but i din home.HAHA.i took a cab down to my baby`s house.din stay there long tho.went home around 6.and den lazed around till now.(=
yawn.tomorrow`s arts fest.gonna be boring again.but YAY im gonna rebond my hair tomorrow.FINALLY.=)yippeeeee.can`t wait.LOL
anyways.yeah that`s about it.gtg.bye (x
2:42 PM;
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
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GREAT.i spent a whole hour typing my post.now it`s all gone. boo.*sigh.): i shan`t retype everything cos i dun wanna rack my brains to go think wat i typed jus now.im jus down in the dumps.very very down.):
here`s some quotes posted on request of brigitte.
Take out the picture. Blow off the dust. Take off the frame, it’s starting to rust. Remember all the times we had together?! What ever happened to "We would be best friends forever"
The guys wear the pants in the relationship,but the women control the zipper"
Y0U KN0W ( Y0U`RE H0T ) .. iiF Y0U WAKE UP iiN ( MY ) BED =)
Can I get your picture? I collect nature disasters
Welcome to loserville. Population: you
U GO GURL But ur boyfriend can stay
Wasnt Kissing Him, I Was Telling His Lips A Secret
Smile and the world smiles with you. Fart and you stand alone.(x
Guys Are Like M&M’s…Some Have Nuts, Some Don’t
Guys are like lava lamps: good to look at, but not very bright
i kNoW yOu tHiNk yOu bRoKe mY hEaRt, bUt i kNeW yOuR gAmE fRoM tHe sTaRt..i SaW yOuR gAmE aNd pLaYeD iT tOo..sTuPiD pLaYa..tHe jOkEs oN yOu
dear heart.i think you remember me. i tend to not care for your feelings and throw you around a lot. sorry for that. i`d just thought i`d warn you that i fell for a boy. good luck
0NLY MY PiLL0W KN0WS -- the tears i`ve cried. the many nights i`ve stayed awake at night missing what we used to have and what all that could have been. 0NLY MY PiLL0W KN0WS -- the pain i`ve put myself through. and all the countless memories that have raced through my head since we said goodbye. 0NLY MY PiLL0W KN0WS -- how true my love is for youu. how i long to be in your arms. and how desperate
and lonely i feel right now. 0NLY MY PiLL0W KN0WS -- that we belong together. the way you would reassure all of my fears. the way you made me feel..
how do i feel now?FREAKIN SAD.why?dun even ask.i dunno the answer either.it`s cold and rainy today.nice day to cry.boo.):
11:50 AM;
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
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darn.sick again.gonna get a real bad flu.cant breathe now.who cares.best is i get a terminal disease and die.(:
went to school today.kinda boring.okayys hold on.it was VERY BORING.maybe except for dnt.(x yeah dee you know why.anyway pe was worse.din`t do anything.we were all sitting down and slacking like nobody`s business.seriously nobody cared.not even the teacher.and then history.sleeping session rather.(: mr yusri jus sat at his computer dunno doing wat also.and den english.BEST.i put my handphone on the table and malak put her ipod on the table and we were sleeping right under his nose while he went thru the english paper answers i think.i think he has given up on us anyway.according to mr yusri alot of people retained this year.ahh.why should i care.it`s none of my business in the first place.
my birthday is coming.do i look like i bother about it?it`s just another day.no big deal.*sigh.i might celebrate i might not.depends.wat`s the use of opening a chalet and nobody goes.anyway i don`t think there`s enough time to go book one.the hol`s are coming.sure fully booked.and fuck my birthday`s on a damn weekday and i still have to go back to school for some damn enrichment.sheesh i give up.i quit studying.it sucks.
arghs.hate this world.it`s unfair.UNFAIR.boo.): once things start going well.suddenly it turns for the worst again.and the worst thing is you dun even know why.don you wish you could keep everything,everyone that you love by your side?don you wish the world just resolves around you and your other half?and no one will take him or her away from you.sigh but sad to say you cant do that.x( you jus gotta hope that they`ll stay true to you.cos it will hurt much more den anything if ur other half cheats on your feelings.
i guess that`s all for today.so long.(:
12:48 PM;
Monday, October 24, 2005
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Spell your name:
A-You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
B-You are always cautious when it comes to meeting new people.
C-You definitely have a partier side in you, dont be shy to show it.
D-You have trouble trusting people.
E- You are a very exciting person.
F-Everyone loves you.
G-You have excellent ways of viewing people.
H-You are not judgemental.
I-You are always smiling & making others smile.
J-Jealousy.
K-You like to try new things.
L-Love is something you deeply believe in.
M-Success comes easily to you.
N-You like to work, but you always want a break.
O-You are very open-minded.
P-You are very friendly and understanding.
Q-You are a hypocrite.
R-You are a social butterfly.
S-You are very broad-minded.
T-You have an attitude, a big one.
U-You feel like you have to equal up to people's standards.
V-You have a very good physical and looks.
W-You like your privacy.
X-You never let people tell you what to do.
Y-You cause a lot of trouble.
Z-You're always fighting with someone
this is so true.haha.wuddever.im bored.there`s school tomorrow.this is do dumb.go school to sleep.yeah.ok before today`s over.so long!
2:59 PM;
Sunday, October 23, 2005
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*whee.home from dinner at marche.wow.orchard was crowded.and ii mean CROWDED.ii think ii can get lost with muhh bad sense of direction.(x damn.im full.shouldn`t have ate so much just now.ii feel like ii gonna burst anytime.time to diet again.:/
muhh baby`s sick.high fever.*frowns.so we din go out today.postponed to tomorrow.=)gonna spend the whole day with him.only him.we gonna watch the korean movie.april snow.wahahaha.nc16.okayys im still young right.im still 15.but who cares.(=
did ii ever mention the holidays are coming?*screams.yay!=.= wuddever.but it`s good.cos ii dun have to wake up early to go to that damn school.it ain`t worth muhh time.going overseas with muhh cousin.yeah.baby`s going with his friends too.to some other place.boo.)x for one month okayys.ONE MONTH.!how to survive?how?yyou tell me lahh.die alreadyy.nevermind it`s ok.i can survive on muhh own.it`s jus a month.*rolls my eyes.im sorry im kinda lame today.ii dunno wat`s going on with me too.(x
tsktsk.haven been out shopping for a long time.im itching to spend money.:x but must wait till muhh dad`s back from his business trip cos muhh mum won`t pay.evil right she.yeah yeah.
im bored lah.he`s playing game again.yes AGAIN.sheesh.yawn.alright.i have nothing much left to say.
bye
2:21 PM;
Friday, October 21, 2005
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i wonder.why guys have that stupid attitude.that makes them flare up so easily.*sigh.im feeling so down.jus cos of ONE question.ONE.well it must have been sensitive to him right.*sigh.im in the wrong again.always me.oh wells.den it shall be my fault again den.if it makes him happy.anything i do is always to try to make people happy.guess i try too hard.till it turns for the worst.*sigh.
now im here.all left alone.again.i hate that feeling.all ALONE.why.guys are indeed more petty den girls.BOO HOO. )x
im having a terrible headache.my skull`s gonna burst open anytime now.pain.*sigh.wish someone would understand.who?unfortunately i think no one does.)x
1:43 PM;
Thursday, October 20, 2005
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believe it or not.i managed to scrape thru to sec 4. =.= well at least miss seah said so. =) but i cant be bothered.i dun wanna stay in that fugged up school.haha.i got 49.5 for maths.and its a pass.=X yeah and i passed english and chinese.guess they give me chance one.but who cares i really hate that school.regret going there.shall transfer school next year i guess.
dun wanna go to school tomorrow.baby`s coming after his last paper.*giggles. (x anyway papers all collected liao.lol.i shall brainwash my mum to go back to sleep tomorrow morning.my dad has left for new york yesterday morning.heard there`s gonna be a hurricane there this weekend.hope he`ll be ok.yeah.
today was boring in school.miss seah was annoying.keep asking me to do e dnt production planning which i din`t know how to do.AT ALL.=x so i jus copied.the usual.no lessons cos exams are over.yay! (x actually thought of going to australia to study.but the fees are so expensive.and i guess i`ll miss the people here.especially muhh dear. >.<
today`s netball match was ok.i played in the first half.as the wing defence.oh gosh.i was lousy at it.and e girl i was supposed to mark kept running and running.and i was like.WHAT THE HELL.stop running.and thru out the match i only got the ball ONCE.how pathetic was that.homing was scary.face so black.and i think i malued myself.it was the first time i was playing in a netball match.unbelievable?well.den BELIEVE IT.ok fine.even muhh boy laughed.how evil lah.
and then at the later part of the day a fight broke out.cos? yeah cos of petty guys.sheesh.their worse then girls.*rolls eyes.
holidays are coming.*screams.can`t wait.oh wells maybe when e hols are here i`ll start complaining bout how boring e hols are.sigh.but yeah it really will be bored if i stay home whole day right.
im bored now.suddenly thought of just now in school.i dunno why but when i was watching the netball match between other classes i almost burst into tears.*sigh.wierd huh.people were busy screaming away and i was stoning.*sheesh.what is going on here.im currently waiting for muhh dear to study finish.yeah.he studies.*whispers.i dun quite believe.heh.oh wells.he wanna do well.he`s feeling guilty!!cos of his mum.orh hor.
yeah can`t wait to see him.(x *shrieks!!okayys guess that`s all.=)
3:56 PM;
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
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urghs.the skin on my face is peeling.that is BAD.bad bad bad.i look like im gonna be disfigured or sumthin.BOO.i dun wanna stay in singapore.it sucks.if not for him.i guess i wont be here.sigh the school fees are so expensive.guess i`ll just transfer school. next year. =)
2:01 PM;
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
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okayy im utterly bored now waiting for muhh baby to study finish.sadly his exams aren`t over.so yeah.sad for him.:X
im having a terrible cough now.and it has been days since it started.when will it ever stop i wonder.haven`t been sleeping well.had many wierd and scary dreams at night.kinda wakes me up in between.
there`s school again tomorrow.darn.hate it to the core.oh wells i shan`t make myself unhappy cos of school.anyway im not gonna be in tk anymore next year.yay.(x dun ask me why.i dun wan to tats why.(:
my shoulders hurt.their red.like lobsters?yeah.hurt real bad.
BOO.hate school.anyways.got nothin to type already.
2:30 PM;
Monday, October 17, 2005
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hmmm.*wondering.do people actually appreciate you?even if you try to do their best for them.i think that`s e problem with me.trying to do my best for someone.sometimes i go too far and den i do the wrong thing.tsktsk.that is NOT GOOD.NOT GOOD.*shake head.
sheesh.there`s school tomorrow.RESULTS.ahhhhhh.confirm flunk all.im so dead.soo dead.well ok fine who cares.im gonna take normal stream next year.im not staying on in tk anymore.stupid school.sucks like shit.ohwells (:
yeah yeah im anti-social.im a loner.SO WHAT.i wait for people to talk to me first.*sigh.that`s me.so take it or leave it (: everybody has their own personality.right?yeah.
my shoulder hurts.like fuck.*ouch.burnt like in an oven.red like lobster.yeah.but nvm.i seldom get burnt.im seldom dark.so let`s enjoy it for while we can.shall we?
3:22 PM;
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YAWN.jus awoke from lalaland.LOL.came back from vanessa`s house at like 7 in the morning.went to her birthday party yesterday.went to sentosa first.it was freakin` hot.burning.and yeah now im burnt!yes!i can get darker.we played in the sea.played played played.den went to bathe.took damn long.cos the queue was freakin long.one hour++?yeah.den the whole group of us went to vanessa`s house for bbq.had fun.=)the food was nice.cmon i made some of them.haha.the guys played basketball.and den we ate ate and ate.and den later some of them went to swim.yeah.in the pool at? 1am?cool.haha.den we went upstairs.sat in the iving room and started talking crap.finally around 3,4+ some kocked out and fell asleep.i guess i wasn`t one of them.dunno why but i just couldn`t sleep.well.time passed so fast.ant it was 6..7.den my dad picked me and my boy.and brought him home.YAWN.im tired.and now my relatives are here.darn.noisy.yawn.gtg eat!
8:21 AM;
Thursday, October 13, 2005
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mii :
do you realize what you are to me?
what you're always going to be?
you are the love of my life.. everyone
else will always be the second best.
there will never be another you <3
him :
i realise what i am to u. im a guy.
im going to be the guy in your heart.
the love of your life like everyone else.
always second best gonna be me,
there will never be another me. FoR Only I eXist.
the second best will forever be me
for. no matter what happens, im going to be behind you.
all the way.
c`mon.it really was his reply.sheesh.he never lets me win.but who cares.his replies are oh-so-sweet.*faints.yeah i guess i do love him.he`s muhh little boy.=)
GiRL: do you believe in angels?
BOY: yes.
GiRL: where do they live?
BOY: some in heaven.. some on earth.
GiRL: have you ever met one?
BOY: yep. even hugged one. kissed one, too.
GiRL: you`re cheating on me with an angel?!
BOY: no, you are my angel.
awwws.aint this sweet too.okayys.but this aint by him.lols.
today was okay.yay.it`s e last day of exams.there ain`t no school tmr and friday.but nah.i dun think im gonna enjoy it.monday`s DOOM DAY.results will come flooding back.LOUSY ones.tat`s e whole point.
dnt paper was TOUGH.oh wells.i took it easily.people had no time to complete the paper but i was fast asleep in lalaland for e last 15mins.yawn.i dreamt the longest and wierdest dream of muhh life.=x and it didn`t complete.WHY?cos e fugging invigilator had to speak into e microphone and say 'TIMES-UP' and that two words woke me up!!!sheesh.wat a pity.
anyway.after that me and dee went to parkway.walked around.slacked at mac.ate 2 hashbrowns?and two 50cent ice creams?yeah tat was how broke we were.den we went to orchard.met my dad.had lunch with him at this indonesian restaurant.den went to fareast with her to buy stuff.made contacts.blue!!yeah.spent 15mins putting in for each eye.tough.i was tearing like crazy.but well i got both in in the end.and i was like.blind for the whoe day.(x we went to look for lotsa stuff.den went to tampines finally when there was nuthin left to look around.the bus ride was freakin long.we fell fast asleep in the bus.went to look for slippers in tampines.they were EXPENSIVE.im broke.big hole in muhh pocket.
yeah guess that`s all.gotta go tok to muhh little boy.(x
nites peeps.
2:53 PM;
Monday, October 10, 2005
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i don't like to play the waiting game as my patience is very limited .
i wanna quit this game . i'm losing out getting myself hurted .
yet i still love u alot alot and i wanna carry on wif the game .
hurting deeper n deeper as ever second pass by .
12:32 PM;
Saturday, October 08, 2005
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*` guys always make
girls cry . but if a
girl can make a guy
cry then she must
really mean something
to him.
yeah.so i guess i really do mean sumthin to him ehh.jus watched e korean mv AGAIN.*sniff sniff*really touching.and den he said sumthin really touching and this time i teared.and when he asked e next question.i sniffed even harder.*SNIFF*and a tear came rolling down my cheek.darn.that was painful.tho i din really noe wat it meant.yeah he was right.maybe i should lose him.den i would know wat true sadness would be.
i never seem to be satisfied with anything.who said so.im satisfied i got him.it might not be obvious.but it is.i mean.yeah its e truth.dun believe?try it.try to walk away and leave me alone here.i think i`d breakdown.sigh.but nah i won`t let you go.unless you insist.
*` i know he may not be the cutest guy to you-
but he is to me.. & theres just something
about him that makes my heart drop to
my feet e v e r y t i m e i see him <3
*` Fate decides who walks into your life
You decide Who stays.Who you allow
to walk away, aNd who you refuse to
L e t L e a v e Y o u '<3
5:04 PM;
Thursday, October 06, 2005
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I ran up the door, closed the stairs,
said my pajamas, and put on my prayers.
Turned off the bed, and hopped into the light,
all because you kissed me good night. <333>
lol this is cute.oh wells yeah.that's wat ppl can actually do when they fall in love.=x anyway im 3days into my exams.am i supposed to be happy?=) dunno.makes no difference to me.laa dee dum.im bored.exams are gonna be over.i think.its faster den i expected.guess cos i sleep during e paper.=)and furhtermore the weather has been cold.*shivers*it's e right time to sleep eh.(x heh.=P going overseas.hols.yay.hmmm guess that's all for now.
(¯`°v°´¯)
(_.^._)
1:22 PM;
Sunday, October 02, 2005
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# she`s afraid of being alone
afraid of being left behind
she doesnt know wat to do
when all the tears fill her eyes
she noes u`ll leave her one day for someone better
but she wants u to no that her love for u is forever
# People say hate is a strong word
but so is love..
and people throw it around like
its nothing.
# So here I sit looking at the traffic lights
The red extinguishes the hope that the green ignites
I want to run away I want to ditch my life
Cause all of my mistakes keep me awake at night
# some people are easy to get over.
they only take a day or two,
but sooner or later
you`ll find the one who has changed
everything about you, and no matter how
hard you try, you can`t find the words to
say goodbye
yeah sigh.i dunno wat's going on with me.things are going all wrong out there.and yeah guess wat.if you wanna rejoice.go ahead.i`ve got nuthin to say if ur that sadistic.
# Theres only one cure for a broken heart..
the one who broke it
5:03 PM;
Saturday, October 01, 2005
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# She looks in the mirror, whipping the running mascara from her face, as she whispers I don't want to be me
# She`s sitting on a bridge staring down at the water, she`s too afraid to jump but so afraid to stay
# happy endings are just stories that arent finished...
s0 true.sigh.l0ts of things happened lately.forgot wat and when and why.but i remember one thing.my friend's a two-faced bitch.sigh why is this starting again.when i've done nothin lately.sigh.ohwells a bunch of childish freaks.you can go ask mj if i asked for his number lah k.i dun mind.i cant be bothered.
hmmm i went to e circus thingy with my cousin.it was awesome.totally.=) oh yeah before that watched "wait till ur older" with my boy.funny.but touching too.and kinda lame.=.="
# girl: why do you even like me ?!?
boy: because you're the girl i`ve been dreaming of
all my life i always knew looking back
on the tears i would laugh
but i never knew looking back
on the laughs i would cry
# You know how people say, "if you wish for something hard enough it will come true?" Well i`ve been wishing for you every night and you still aren`t here with me.
# you are every reason ...every hope and every dream
ive ever had and no matter what happens
to us in the future everyday we were together
was the greatest day of my life
# a boy and a girl stood in line for his favorite rollercoaster.
the girlshuddered in fear ;; her fear, heights.
she glanced at the boy with watery eyes and managed to say "i can`t do this."
he put his hand on her cheek and smiled."i promise you. if you fall out, i`ll go with you."
life's sad lah. =(
5:31 PM;