{SOMWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW}.
Sunday, November 06, 2005
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ALOT
of things have happened recently.
within 2 days.
TWO freakin days.
got really drunk last night.
yes REAL drunk.

becos of YOU
i am afraid.

i found out alot of things.
things i should`t have known.
truths that HURT totally i think you could hear my heart shatter.
literally.
just went *PIANG.

i went on and on about it for 2 days.
bringing it up again and again.
you get pissed off.
but now you are asking me for a chance.
i have decided to give you ONE last chance.
just ONE.
and no more.
if this happens again.
NEVER will i give you this chance.
you won`t deserve it any longer.

that night when i found out the truth.
for a moment i hated you.
hatred was all there was.
WHY?
you HURT me totally.
i trusted you but you betrayed my trust.
now im putting my trust in you again.
don`t ever betray it.

forgive and forget?
nah.
i can forgive you.
i really can.
but NEVER.
i will NEVER forget what happened.
whether we last forever or not.
i will always remember what you did.

'can you continue loving me? I want to love you still.i promise i will love you whole-heartedly and won`t hurt you anymore.'
you said it.
i have proof.
so yeah you PROMISE
so keep it.
or don`t promise AT ALL.

anyway yeah.
GOD DAMMIT.
some fucker(i shall not name who) came to my house.
don`t let me go to my own toilet.
don`t let me talk on the phone quietly.
don`t let me step out of my own house.
and,luckily aaron came.
well no nice show to watch.
my parents came back.
i walked out.
went downstairs.
walked.
both of us went for a movie 'skyhigh' at tm
quarrelled at night.
cos of THAT matter that hurt so much.
but still i gave him a chance.

AARON.!
take good care of that chance.
treasure it.
if it ever happens again.
NEVER will i give you another chance.

yeah guess that`s about all.
had two tiring days.
haven`t slept in how many days.
goodnites. (:

6:17 PM;

N {yours truly}

.taniayan.
.011189.
.currently 17plus.
.attached.
.dog grooming

i totallyadore
.black.
.orange.
.the sunrise.
.pups.
.lolipops.
.shopping.
.horror flicks.

i totallydetest
.flirts.
.playboys.
.liars.
.backstabbers.
.hypocrites.
.CRYING.



N {ATRIBUIR}

Please dont judge me by my face, by my religion or my race. Please dont laugh at what I wear, or how I look or do my hair. Please look a little deeper, way down deep inside. And although you may not see it, I have a lot to hide. Behind my clothes the secrets lie, behind my smile I softly cry. Please look a little deeper, and maybe you will see. The lonely little girl, that lives inside of me. Please listen carefully to her, she'll show that she is insecure. Please try to be a friend to her, and show her that you care. Please just get to know her, and maybe you will see. That if you just look deep enough, you'll find the real me.

N {my dreams}

to get married at fullerton.
for more money.
for more clothes.
for a new handphone7610.
for another new handphone.
for a new house.
to study in australia.
to get a golden retriever.
to get a husky.
to get a german shepherd.
to watch the sunrise/sunset with HIM.
to go star gazing with HIM.
to migrate.
to go horseback riding by the beach.
for her own computer.
for her own digital camera.
to rebond her hair.
for blue contacts.
for new spectacles.
to meet michael chad murray.
to meet TORRES.
to forget the past
TO DIE.

N {AMI}

`` aaron
`` alexandria
`` brigitte
`` carmen
`` charlotte
`` charmm
`` chiwen
`` de xin
`` dulcie
`` elenor
`` fang lynn
`` gabriel
`` gillian
`` heart of God church
`` hidayah
`` izzat
`` jaja
`` jason
`` jazlyn
`` jennifer
`` justin
`` jia hui
`` jian he
`` jiale
`` kai sheng
`` mee han
`` melvin
`` michelle
`` ming rong
`` nicholas how
`` one destination
`` ryan
`` sally
`` sim yee
`` siyang
`` solomon
`` valerie
`` xiu qi



N {DISCOURIR}



N {the past}

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