its kinda sad isn`t it.
well actually in fact it is very sad.
doing everything for the person you love yet he doesn`t appreciate it.
sighs


well it`s ok huh.
go on, go on.
vent your anger on me.
jus becos of a pathetic computer game.
sheesh.
since ur so addicted to it.
go marry it.
go date it.
when ur sad go find it alright.
don find me.
since i can do nuthin to help you.
so be it.


i waited and waited.
and wonder every min and every second.
if you think of me.
or if you even remember me.
well i dun think you do.


wait one sec.
how bout a min?
oh wells.
im used to it.
i`ve been waiting all my life anyway.
so what?
does it even mean a thing to you.


i`ve always been on the losing end.
that was what i was borned for.
for people to shun.
for people to hate.
for people to look down on.
doesn`t matter anymore.
does it ??


borned to cry.
is it.
yeah that`s me.
call me a crybaby.
call me weak.
call me whatever you want.
it`s up to you.
see me that way?
it`s alright.


go on.
what else do you all have to say ??
give me more names if you can.
a bitch ? a whore ? or maybe a slut.
somemore ?
you can do better than that right.
(:


it`s freezing here.
and im all alone.
yes alone.
in the dark.
and i hate the dark.
sigh.

.taniayan.
.011189.
.currently 17plus.
.attached.
.dog grooming

i totallyadore
.black.
.orange.
.the sunrise.
.pups.
.lolipops.
.shopping.
.horror flicks.

i totallydetest
.flirts.
.playboys.
.liars.
.backstabbers.
.hypocrites.
.CRYING.

Please dont judge me by my face, by my religion or my race. Please dont laugh at what I wear, or how I look or do my hair. Please look a little deeper, way down deep inside. And although you may not see it, I have a lot to hide. Behind my clothes the secrets lie, behind my smile I softly cry. Please look a little deeper, and maybe you will see. The lonely little girl, that lives inside of me. Please listen carefully to her, she'll show that she is insecure. Please try to be a friend to her, and show her that you care. Please just get to know her, and maybe you will see. That if you just look deep enough, you'll find the real me.


to get married at fullerton.
for more money.
for more clothes.
for a new handphone7610.
for another new handphone.
for a new house.
to study in australia.
to get a golden retriever.
to get a husky.
to get a german shepherd.
to watch the sunrise/sunset with HIM.
to go star gazing with HIM.
to migrate.
to go horseback riding by the beach.
for her own computer.
for her own digital camera.
to rebond her hair.
for blue contacts.
for new spectacles.
to meet michael chad murray.
to meet TORRES.
to forget the past
TO DIE.


`` aaron
`` alexandria
`` brigitte
`` carmen
`` charlotte
`` charmm
`` chiwen
`` de xin
`` dulcie
`` elenor
`` fang lynn
`` gabriel
`` gillian
`` heart of God church
`` hidayah
`` izzat
`` jaja
`` jason
`` jazlyn
`` jennifer
`` justin
`` jia hui
`` jian he
`` jiale
`` kai sheng
`` mee han
`` melvin
`` michelle
`` ming rong
`` nicholas how
`` one destination
`` ryan
`` sally
`` sim yee
`` siyang
`` solomon
`` valerie
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