sigh.

i dunno which is true and which is not.

i dunno what to believe and what not to believe.

someone told me to believe half.

half?

er yeah.

half.

but i dunno WHAT to believe.

sigh.

im upset. ):

someone tell me what to do.

i freakin have school tomorrow.

740 to 230.

bloody fuck.

it`s supposed to be the darn holidays !!

what the fuck is the school up to.

ROAR.

i am angry !!

urghs.

wuddever.

i can`t be bothered.

i have a fuckin sorethroat now.

and it hurts like fuck.

sorry for the vulgarities.

i am in an extrememly bad mood now.

TODAY WAS WHAT HAPPENED.

woke up at one.

called him at 230.

met dulcie at 330.

gave me the bracelet.

met him at 355.

pulled him to long john`s.

but he saw thru our plan.

so he pulled me to macs.

saw the bracelet.

took it and broke it.

threw it away,

SIGH.

and then watched doom.

he took my phone and forbidded me to contact her.

watch finish show.

went to fareast.

tried on a long sleeve shirt.

SHIT.

he looked gorgeous.

went to hereen to eat with my family.

and he went home.

2 days of torture.

first time i stayed over at a guy`s house.

wuddever.

it didn`t matter.

cos i wasn`t happy.

OF COS I WASN`T.

if it happened to you.

you wouldn`t be.

alright don ask me what happened.

i will keep my mouth shut.

this is TOP SECRET -.-

it is late.

goodnights.

(:

.taniayan.
.011189.
.currently 17plus.
.attached.
.dog grooming

i totallyadore
.black.
.orange.
.the sunrise.
.pups.
.lolipops.
.shopping.
.horror flicks.

i totallydetest
.flirts.
.playboys.
.liars.
.backstabbers.
.hypocrites.
.CRYING.

Please dont judge me by my face, by my religion or my race. Please dont laugh at what I wear, or how I look or do my hair. Please look a little deeper, way down deep inside. And although you may not see it, I have a lot to hide. Behind my clothes the secrets lie, behind my smile I softly cry. Please look a little deeper, and maybe you will see. The lonely little girl, that lives inside of me. Please listen carefully to her, she'll show that she is insecure. Please try to be a friend to her, and show her that you care. Please just get to know her, and maybe you will see. That if you just look deep enough, you'll find the real me.


to get married at fullerton.
for more money.
for more clothes.
for a new handphone7610.
for another new handphone.
for a new house.
to study in australia.
to get a golden retriever.
to get a husky.
to get a german shepherd.
to watch the sunrise/sunset with HIM.
to go star gazing with HIM.
to migrate.
to go horseback riding by the beach.
for her own computer.
for her own digital camera.
to rebond her hair.
for blue contacts.
for new spectacles.
to meet michael chad murray.
to meet TORRES.
to forget the past
TO DIE.


`` aaron
`` alexandria
`` brigitte
`` carmen
`` charlotte
`` charmm
`` chiwen
`` de xin
`` dulcie
`` elenor
`` fang lynn
`` gabriel
`` gillian
`` heart of God church
`` hidayah
`` izzat
`` jaja
`` jason
`` jazlyn
`` jennifer
`` justin
`` jia hui
`` jian he
`` jiale
`` kai sheng
`` mee han
`` melvin
`` michelle
`` ming rong
`` nicholas how
`` one destination
`` ryan
`` sally
`` sim yee
`` siyang
`` solomon
`` valerie
`` xiu qi

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