sometimes i jus wonder.
is it about you or is it about me?
well yeah it never was about me.
all along it was you.
the word 'myself' never existed in my dictionary.
cos in my life
everything was for you.
but anyway i don`t even know if you realise that.

been really upset.

sighs.

wanted to drink.

but couldn`t find any.

haven`t refilled them yet.

didn`t go to school today.
was kinda lazy when i woke up.
so i told my mum,
'mum im lazy'
and that`s it
i went back to sleep.
who cares.
extra lessons are stupid.
especially when you go back and they just give you worksheets to do.


DRATS.
the holidays are boring.
someone find me a job please.
or ask me out.
boredom is going to take my life away soon.

___________________________________________________________________[0900pm]

x.edited-`

watched the 0900 show?

is the girl really gonna wait for him to come back?

are they really gonna get married?

are they really gonna last forever?

sheesh.

why am i asking all this

what has it got to do with me.

anyway.

im confused.

i dunno what to do.

i dunno what to believe and what not to believe.

gonna get into depression.

i need some alchohol.

this year hasn`t been a good one for me.

i haven`t even gone to that goddamned school.

to ask if i can get in.

sighs. :(

upset.

about what.

about every god damned thing that`s going on.

nobody knows and nobody cares.

im jus sinking deeper and deeper into hell.

and i doubt i`ll stop anywhere.

I GIVE UP.

i guess he`ll never appreciate it.

all that i`v done.

.taniayan.
.011189.
.currently 17plus.
.attached.
.dog grooming

i totallyadore
.black.
.orange.
.the sunrise.
.pups.
.lolipops.
.shopping.
.horror flicks.

i totallydetest
.flirts.
.playboys.
.liars.
.backstabbers.
.hypocrites.
.CRYING.

Please dont judge me by my face, by my religion or my race. Please dont laugh at what I wear, or how I look or do my hair. Please look a little deeper, way down deep inside. And although you may not see it, I have a lot to hide. Behind my clothes the secrets lie, behind my smile I softly cry. Please look a little deeper, and maybe you will see. The lonely little girl, that lives inside of me. Please listen carefully to her, she'll show that she is insecure. Please try to be a friend to her, and show her that you care. Please just get to know her, and maybe you will see. That if you just look deep enough, you'll find the real me.


to get married at fullerton.
for more money.
for more clothes.
for a new handphone7610.
for another new handphone.
for a new house.
to study in australia.
to get a golden retriever.
to get a husky.
to get a german shepherd.
to watch the sunrise/sunset with HIM.
to go star gazing with HIM.
to migrate.
to go horseback riding by the beach.
for her own computer.
for her own digital camera.
to rebond her hair.
for blue contacts.
for new spectacles.
to meet michael chad murray.
to meet TORRES.
to forget the past
TO DIE.


`` aaron
`` alexandria
`` brigitte
`` carmen
`` charlotte
`` charmm
`` chiwen
`` de xin
`` dulcie
`` elenor
`` fang lynn
`` gabriel
`` gillian
`` heart of God church
`` hidayah
`` izzat
`` jaja
`` jason
`` jazlyn
`` jennifer
`` justin
`` jia hui
`` jian he
`` jiale
`` kai sheng
`` mee han
`` melvin
`` michelle
`` ming rong
`` nicholas how
`` one destination
`` ryan
`` sally
`` sim yee
`` siyang
`` solomon
`` valerie
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