Saturday, November 11, 2006
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i haven posted in almost a week.
ask me why.
becos firstly im lazy.
secondly.
im having troubles in my life now.
and i cant seem to solve it.
SO FUCK OFF.
im confused and down.
im crying.
im angry.
yes with myself.
cos i caused all this.
and now there`s no turning back.
someone`s gonna be hurt real bad.
but i HAVE to make a choice.
i haven yet.
but im sorry to the person whom
im going to turn away.
i have to do it.
or all 3 of us will get hurt.
haven been doing much.
just have been thinking too much
about this matter.
but i wanna thank jaja and jess
for always being there.
them = true friends.
becos they care.
they share.
they make my day.
they don betray.
they listen.
and they are always there.
i feel so myself when im with them.
(:
i guess this is the only comfort
i have left in me.
if one day i have no one left i always
have them.
time pasts so fast.
i just hate it so much.
wish it would just stop here.
SIGH.
i wanna run away from the truth.
but it`s obviously impossible.
i wanna go away and never come back.
suicidal thoughts are coming back.
the pain in my heart is so much worse
now den before.
i dun think dying would be anything
big anymore.
my heart`s breaking and the wound is being
soaked in salt.
i really wanna run away.
but i dunno how to.
i wish someone would just take me
somewhere far.
i dun ever wanna come back no more.
11:35 AM;
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
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baby`s in camp.
:c
okay so woke up early today.
reached school at 925.
waited for jaja and jess.
they were both late la.
so i din get to smoke.
:x
went up for maths paper.
was supposed to sit with jordan
but ended up sitting with jaja.
did the paper.
like super easy at first i thought.
den at the back i started to stare
into space.
finished the paper quite early.
so started doodling all over my qn paper.
and i was thinking of baby so much.
>:(
after the paper.
had to go meet my aunt at somerset.
so
jaja and jess went off.
i was like waiting for the stupid bus.
den lucas asked me where i was going.
i was like...orchard.
den he ws like.
this bus stop where got bus go orchard.
only den did i realise i was waiting at
the wrong place.
phew.
luckily he asked.
so cabb-d down the centrepoint in the end.
ate at some garden cafe with my aunt
and my cousin.
den after that companied my cousin to the
dentist.
aha.
fell asleep there while waiting.
after that.
went to her house.
watched tv.
den she went to sleep.
i ended up falling asleep too.
den decided to meet jaja.
woke up at 515.
quickly took a cab down to paya lebar
to meet her.
den train-d to tm.
had starbucks.
den suddenly jordan popped out from
nowhere and scared me to death.
he looked like a bull charging at me.
aha !
so yeah.
den i went to buy some stuff for baby.
bought a shirt for myself too.
now im broke.
tmr i have to go market with jess bf
to get food.
OMG.
i dunno how many centuries have
i not been to a market.
tmr`s poa paper.
omg.
so dead.
sure fail.
-.-
okay so talked to baby just now.
only for a short while.
i think he`s super tired.
:c
anyway my tummy hurts.
so i shall go shit now.
toodles !
3:40 PM;
Sunday, November 05, 2006
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haven blogged for afew days.
i shant type too much.
cos im tired and lazy.
it`s like 3am now.
yawn.
friday
woke up super early in the morning.
din have any paper so followed
daddy to office.
rot there for like awhile.
den went to have lunch with him.
people looked at us like im dating
an old man.
aha !
-.-
so yeah had satay beehoon.
:D
after that we went back to his
office again.
fell asleep there for awhile den jaja msged me.
so walked to mount e. by myself.
met her jess and ja`s mummy there.
yeah she was going for an _______.
>:c
so sad.
and so worried for her.
ms clara came at 230.
so sweet of her.
den at 3 jaja had to go in.
so we all waited outside for her.
i kept asking jessie to go down and
smoke with me but she din want.
den lucky ms clara asked us to go
get a drink for her.
got to smoke den.
aha.
jess and i walked to 7-11.
bought some stuff den walked back again.
saw jaja`s mumm crying.
):
did nuthin.
sat there and rot.
and looked at the cute babies that kept
coming in.
and at the same time worrying
for jaja.
:c
after about 2hours.
she came out.
she was crying lorr.
)x
i so felt like crying too.
boo.
consoled her.
den after that she and her mummy
took a cab home.
she needed to rest.
ms clara went back to school.
jess sent me to mrt den she went back
home too.
i train-d to clementi.
den cabbed to jia`s hse.
wwhen i reached there she just
finished teaching her student.
si we bus-d to holland v.
she treated me to sushi tei. !!
hehe.
loved it.
den after that at haggen diaz.
:D
gna grow fat.
den we shopped around.
bought some make-up.
yupp.
saturday din do much.
woke up at like 315 when baby called.
den i went back to sleep again.
345 i woke up to wash up.
den bus-d to amk.
met baby at his hse.
den at 830 baby me his mummy and
his mummy`s friends went to the
nearby shop to eat crab.
ate until super full la.
finished around 10.
den went back to baby`s hse to take
his specs and slacked awhile.
den baby fell asleep.
wanted to go off and leave him a note.
but den decided not to.
so woke him up.
den we went to arcade to play daytona.
aha.
so stupid i lost 2 rounds.
nothin much.
it was super late den nowhere to go.
and baby`s super tired.
so cabb-b back to my home.
baby`s bathing now.
shall sleep soon.!
blog again tmr.
(:
to jessie and jaja : jaja.be strong.i still love you no matter what.jessie.iloveyou too.remember to stand up to what you want.tell him how you feel.i support you.=P
to my baby : NOTHING.iloveyou.:D hehe.
7:19 PM;
Friday, November 03, 2006
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im homey.
lalala.
>(:
had quite a long day today.
hehehe.
-.-
went to sch early this morning.
as usual met jaja and jessie.
den went up for eng paper 1.
hate compos.
ugh.
paper ended quite soon.
den the three of us went to coffee express.
saw that malaysian guy again!!
:D
whee.
like real.
yeah he kept smiling at me la.
so yeah.
jaja said that the next paper was
at 1230.
so happily we were eating our lunch.
den when we went back for the paper.
we opened the examination room door.
the room was like totally quiet.
omfg.
we were like late for the paper for 45mins.
omfg.
aha.
so i had to like rush thru the stupid
comprehension and summary.
gosh.
we had a good laugh over it.
after that paper van sherie sam shuning
jaja jes me went to the coffeeshop to eat.
they were like studying for physics while
i was playing with my hp?
went back to school to take physics.
i din know how to do at all can.
it wasnt like an exam la.
jessie was like her handphone was on
the table.
jaja was looking at her phone and sending
pictures to hers.
i was like looking at jaja`s paper.
and i duinno for what reason jess and
teri were like laughing.
after physics.
ja jess me walked to bugis.
took neos.
den walked to raffles hotel.
sat at banquet.
den jess bf came.
sat for awhile.
walked to long john to eat.
den after that while me and jaja were
smoking at some back alley.
some woman came up to us and gave us
some slimming thing.
YAY.
i think it works.
aha.
den train-d with ja to bedok.
to pick her sis up.
den walked back to int.
took 9 home.
i like super miss my baby now.
>:c
2:29 PM;
Thursday, November 02, 2006
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home from my birthday dinner !!
(:
in the morning woke up like at 830.
mummy fetched me to school.
met jaja and jessie downstairs.
i walked into the room and was
like : wish me happy birthday
everyone !
aha.
so had chemistry written paper.
front part was quite easy.
the last past was like shit.
den ms selena came over to like
give me hints.
she was circling some things
but i din get anything that she
was trying to tell me.
paper ended.
went downstairs with jaja to smoke.
forgot to bring mine.
UGH. !
but nvm i took from the security guard
and jordan.
hehe.
den after that jaja had to go to work.
so i went with jessie to meet her bf
at their working place.
den we walked to bugis to have
bachormee?
(:
den we train-d to plaza sing.
went to buy the tickets for `deathnote`
feel like super outdated cos the show
came out so long ago.
ya but anyway jessie and her bf
treated me to the movie.
:D
love her.
but the show started like at 330.
so we went to monstercue to play pool.
tried to force jessie to play but she din
want to.
so ended up playing with her bf.
i feel so lucky today cos i won quite
a few rounds.
and that doesn`t usually happen.
-.-
stayed there quite long till like around 315.
walked back to ps.
went into the cinema.
the show was damn nice la.
but i think i was tired so i fell asleep
for awhile.
i think the main actor is cute.
xD
den after that.
had nuthin to do and jessie wanted
to study for physics.
so we went to starbucks and sat there.
sat for quite long.
till my whole family came.
went to eat swensens.
jess and her bf went too.
ate so much.
like the 3 of us shared the earthquake!
wished jaja and my bf was there too.
:c
den it would be perfect.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.
(:
so as like i predicted.
all that i thought all were true.
knew it.
sigh.
but nvm.
(:
i have the best birthday gift ever.
jessie jaja and my boyfriend.
hehe.
i miss my baby but he`ll be out this
SATURDAY!!!
3:30 PM;
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
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just bathed.
feel so good now.
:D
went to school early today to
take my maths paper.
SO EASY.
:D
i can get full marks !!!
as if.
so like.
for the first time i slowly did
the paper.
and when i finished i drew a
heart on it.
cos i was bored.
den ms jasmine took my paper
and went thru it.
and she was like : you drew this
heart for me right?
(:
so yeah paper ended at 1100.
jaja me went to smoke with justin
teri they all as usual.
den jessie came down.
3 of us walked to raffles city to eat.
but i fell asleep on the table.
:X
went back to school after that.
went to 6floor for awhile.
den jaja wanted to study for her
ss paper at 2.
so she went to the cafe.
jessie went to 7floor to use the com.
i follwed jaja.
justin lucas teri john junrong sherie and
another was there.
so i was like extra.
i just sat there.
jaja din even study la.
and jordan was really noisy.
at 145 we all went down to smoke
again.
hehe.
den me and jess left.
jaja went for her paper.
jess and i walked to bugis to take mrt.
i was going to tamp to find jiayuan
and she was going to pasir ris to meet
her bf.
the ride was really fast.
den met jy at pasta mania.
i smoked alot today !!!
omfg.
:c
just sat there for like 3hours?
den jy quarelled with her bf.
really wanna help her but dunno
how to also.
den after that around 6 we went
to starbucks.
sat there until 8.
den send her to bus int.
den daddy came to pick me up.
xD
den now im home.
(:
toodles !!
i super miss my baby now. -frowns.
>:c
TMR IS MY BIRTHDAY !.
1:55 PM;