i was counting the stars as i walked home.
there were only 2.
sigh.

okay straight to the point.
hubby isnt in camp right now.
why?
cos he actually got to defer.
but he didnt tell me the other day.
and he kinda wanted to give me a surprise.
and yepp indeed i was.

this morning.
i was supposed to be in scchool at 11.
cos it was a public holiday.
i couldnt get up so i kinda reached at 1 only.

i woke up 1130.
i think i saw some things i shouldnt have seen.
it pissed me off like right away.
i was darn pissed off.
i was burning inside.
i din know why i din noe how.
but i just hated it.
it gets on my nerves so much.

so after seeing those things.
i left the house.
i din even bother to give him a kiss goodbye.
my mood was just spoilt.
]:

i msg-d him when i left the house.
walked to the bus stop and just nice the
bus came.
i was thinking about stuffs the whole day.
i couldnt sleep.

anyway i just had one dog to do today.
puppy cut.
his name was i think wesky...?
maltese..a fat one in fact.
he was really good but lazy.
so like i had to use almost all my strength trying
to support his bum.

it was around 130 and i realised he hasnt msg-d me.
i thought he was angry.
i din care at first or at least i din want to.
but i still wondered if he was awake.
cos if not he`d be late for work.

so i called him and he said he just woke up.
and he asked me why i was so angry this
morning.
i just couldnt find the right words to explain.

maybe i should just care lesss huh.
im hungry right now.
so i cant think that straight.

gosh.
i`ve been getting hungry every single day ever since
i started grooming.
grooming is draining all my energy.
i feel like eating...i dno..just something.

anyway.
i shall go watch my tv now.
bye.

today just utterly sucks.
):

.taniayan.
.011189.
.currently 17plus.
.attached.
.dog grooming

i totallyadore
.black.
.orange.
.the sunrise.
.pups.
.lolipops.
.shopping.
.horror flicks.

i totallydetest
.flirts.
.playboys.
.liars.
.backstabbers.
.hypocrites.
.CRYING.

Please dont judge me by my face, by my religion or my race. Please dont laugh at what I wear, or how I look or do my hair. Please look a little deeper, way down deep inside. And although you may not see it, I have a lot to hide. Behind my clothes the secrets lie, behind my smile I softly cry. Please look a little deeper, and maybe you will see. The lonely little girl, that lives inside of me. Please listen carefully to her, she'll show that she is insecure. Please try to be a friend to her, and show her that you care. Please just get to know her, and maybe you will see. That if you just look deep enough, you'll find the real me.


to get married at fullerton.
for more money.
for more clothes.
for a new handphone7610.
for another new handphone.
for a new house.
to study in australia.
to get a golden retriever.
to get a husky.
to get a german shepherd.
to watch the sunrise/sunset with HIM.
to go star gazing with HIM.
to migrate.
to go horseback riding by the beach.
for her own computer.
for her own digital camera.
to rebond her hair.
for blue contacts.
for new spectacles.
to meet michael chad murray.
to meet TORRES.
to forget the past
TO DIE.


`` aaron
`` alexandria
`` brigitte
`` carmen
`` charlotte
`` charmm
`` chiwen
`` de xin
`` dulcie
`` elenor
`` fang lynn
`` gabriel
`` gillian
`` heart of God church
`` hidayah
`` izzat
`` jaja
`` jason
`` jazlyn
`` jennifer
`` justin
`` jia hui
`` jian he
`` jiale
`` kai sheng
`` mee han
`` melvin
`` michelle
`` ming rong
`` nicholas how
`` one destination
`` ryan
`` sally
`` sim yee
`` siyang
`` solomon
`` valerie
`` xiu qi

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